At this time last year I was feeling the need for Jesus in my life, but I didn't know how to bring that up to Robert because I knew how he felt about going to church. Then, one day, he noticed something was wrong ... that I wasn't my normal self ... and he asked me about it. I finally told him my thoughts ... that I felt the need to have God in my life again and was thinking about going to the Catholic church just down the street. Much to my amazement, he said I should go if that's what I wanted to do.
After procrastinating a week or two, I finally started to go ... and, though I felt a little out of place, I loved it. I kept going and just a few weeks later I was glad that I had. I knew there were changes I needed to make in my life. Things I had been praying about, but I was not expecting the drastic life changes that were coming my way. In June, just a few short weeks later, God took Robert and left me in a tailspin.
I managed to get through the next couple of months because I had loving friends, a loving mom and I drew closer to my Savior. My mom was a big help and comfort to me during this time. But God wasn't done yet. In August, He took her too. I am glad that I was there when she passed. Somehow, holding her hand in that moment that she left us, I felt closer to her than I had ever felt before. I knew that Jesus was there, guiding her to her new life, and I knew He was there comforting me too.
I do not understand why God took these people from my life when He did. I only know that my life has changed in many ways since then. I am now on my own, without Robert and without parents. I am learning who I am. I am learning to lean on God. I am learning to lean on Jesus and getting to know His mother too.
Life has not been all bad over the last 10 months since Robert passed. I have grown in my faith, in my relationship with the Holy Trinity and Mother Mary. And God has brought a new man into my life. I do not know where that relationship is going, but I do trust that it is in God's hands and that it is His will that we met when we did.
Victor has been a blessing to me in so many ways...helping me in my faith, helping me in learning to trust again, helping me to be a friend again and helping me to love again. It is an extra special bonus to me that he is Catholic too. It is a blessing that we can share our spirituality together, that we can discuss Scripture together, that we can lift each other up when the other needs lifting.
More than that, it is a very special blessing that he was with me during the most important event in my life thus far ... baptism, confirmation into the Church and first communion. He was there to pray with me and share that special mass. If it be God's will, I look forward to attending more masses with him, sharing more communions with him, and praying with him more. He is a light in my life that I hope God will allow to stay there for a long time to come.
Yes, the last year has brought changes. Though I have grieved, I have also found joy and light. Life changes. Sometimes for the bad, sometimes for the good. The thing is, you just have to allow God to do His will in your life so that you can count the blessings that come with those changes. I am glad I allowed Him to change my life, because despite the sorrow, it has also brought many, many blessings....even in the times that I have resisted, He has blessed me.
Thank you, Lord Jesus, for loving me so much that You gave your life for me! Thank you, Father, that you loved me so much that you sacrificed your Son for me! Thank you, Holy Spirit, that you come to me and fill me each day with the light and joy of the Trinity. Thank you, Mother Mary, for watching over me and for interceding on my behalf each and every day. May I never forget the Love, the Mercy, the Kindness, the Joy, the Light that You all bring to me each and every day! Our loving Father, our Lord Jesus, the Holy Spirit and our Holy Mother ... they are indeed very Good in my life!!!!
After procrastinating a week or two, I finally started to go ... and, though I felt a little out of place, I loved it. I kept going and just a few weeks later I was glad that I had. I knew there were changes I needed to make in my life. Things I had been praying about, but I was not expecting the drastic life changes that were coming my way. In June, just a few short weeks later, God took Robert and left me in a tailspin.
I managed to get through the next couple of months because I had loving friends, a loving mom and I drew closer to my Savior. My mom was a big help and comfort to me during this time. But God wasn't done yet. In August, He took her too. I am glad that I was there when she passed. Somehow, holding her hand in that moment that she left us, I felt closer to her than I had ever felt before. I knew that Jesus was there, guiding her to her new life, and I knew He was there comforting me too.
I do not understand why God took these people from my life when He did. I only know that my life has changed in many ways since then. I am now on my own, without Robert and without parents. I am learning who I am. I am learning to lean on God. I am learning to lean on Jesus and getting to know His mother too.
Life has not been all bad over the last 10 months since Robert passed. I have grown in my faith, in my relationship with the Holy Trinity and Mother Mary. And God has brought a new man into my life. I do not know where that relationship is going, but I do trust that it is in God's hands and that it is His will that we met when we did.
Victor has been a blessing to me in so many ways...helping me in my faith, helping me in learning to trust again, helping me to be a friend again and helping me to love again. It is an extra special bonus to me that he is Catholic too. It is a blessing that we can share our spirituality together, that we can discuss Scripture together, that we can lift each other up when the other needs lifting.
More than that, it is a very special blessing that he was with me during the most important event in my life thus far ... baptism, confirmation into the Church and first communion. He was there to pray with me and share that special mass. If it be God's will, I look forward to attending more masses with him, sharing more communions with him, and praying with him more. He is a light in my life that I hope God will allow to stay there for a long time to come.
Yes, the last year has brought changes. Though I have grieved, I have also found joy and light. Life changes. Sometimes for the bad, sometimes for the good. The thing is, you just have to allow God to do His will in your life so that you can count the blessings that come with those changes. I am glad I allowed Him to change my life, because despite the sorrow, it has also brought many, many blessings....even in the times that I have resisted, He has blessed me.
Thank you, Lord Jesus, for loving me so much that You gave your life for me! Thank you, Father, that you loved me so much that you sacrificed your Son for me! Thank you, Holy Spirit, that you come to me and fill me each day with the light and joy of the Trinity. Thank you, Mother Mary, for watching over me and for interceding on my behalf each and every day. May I never forget the Love, the Mercy, the Kindness, the Joy, the Light that You all bring to me each and every day! Our loving Father, our Lord Jesus, the Holy Spirit and our Holy Mother ... they are indeed very Good in my life!!!!