Gary
He was a kind man,
Gentle & sweet.
It was in church
That we did meet.
We became friends
My heart reached out to his
Eventually we headed down
That road of "sweet marital bliss."
Forsaking all others,
I clung to him.
I put my heart
Out there on a limb.
But what did I do
By marrying you?
Almost from the instant that I did
A secret had to be hid.
You lost interest in me
Almost right away.
My loneliness I buried...
I had to keep the shame at bay.
I married you and
It was meant to be forever.
And forever it would be
If it was up to me.
Then we moved away
From my family and friends
To make a new start.
I was willing to go 'cause I'd given you my heart.
Your family didn't like me
That I quickly did see.
The friends I made were untrue
And I found myself angry and blue.
When I could't take the loneliness anymore,
I told you what I had in store.
It shocked me when you said it was alright ...
It cut me like a knife when, for me, you wouldn't put up a fight.
A few months later
I couldn't hold in the pain.
In anger, I hurt you
I had lost myself and felt like I was going insane.
I packed your bags and had you leave
My heart was aching....
Our "forever" was over.
The end I had never wanted had come.
I was a failure
And my friend had been right...
I never should have married you
That long ago night.
I sometimes wonder where you are today.
Are you happy and are you okay?
Despite what happened between us,
I miss that kind, sweet gentle man that once was my friend!
© Lisa Cissna
October, 2010
He was a kind man,
Gentle & sweet.
It was in church
That we did meet.
We became friends
My heart reached out to his
Eventually we headed down
That road of "sweet marital bliss."
Forsaking all others,
I clung to him.
I put my heart
Out there on a limb.
But what did I do
By marrying you?
Almost from the instant that I did
A secret had to be hid.
You lost interest in me
Almost right away.
My loneliness I buried...
I had to keep the shame at bay.
I married you and
It was meant to be forever.
And forever it would be
If it was up to me.
Then we moved away
From my family and friends
To make a new start.
I was willing to go 'cause I'd given you my heart.
Your family didn't like me
That I quickly did see.
The friends I made were untrue
And I found myself angry and blue.
When I could't take the loneliness anymore,
I told you what I had in store.
It shocked me when you said it was alright ...
It cut me like a knife when, for me, you wouldn't put up a fight.
A few months later
I couldn't hold in the pain.
In anger, I hurt you
I had lost myself and felt like I was going insane.
I packed your bags and had you leave
My heart was aching....
Our "forever" was over.
The end I had never wanted had come.
I was a failure
And my friend had been right...
I never should have married you
That long ago night.
I sometimes wonder where you are today.
Are you happy and are you okay?
Despite what happened between us,
I miss that kind, sweet gentle man that once was my friend!
© Lisa Cissna
October, 2010
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© 1998-2016 Lisa Cissna. All rights reserved.
Contents may be used with permission only by the author(s) herein.